BABIES AAAHHHH

My friend John and I have this joke about how everybody I know is either pregnant or trying to get pregnant. In fact every female other than me in my Bible study is either pregnant or trying to get pregnant except me. It makes it a little weird and awkward sometimes. Like why do they say "we have been trying really hard to get pregnant" and then all the other women discuss what the problem is or could be, SERIOUSLY PEOPLE VIRGIN EARS. So anyway I thought I would just share that with you. ON to other important business, my brother was at the Bagelry the other day (by the way I really miss new england bagels, which are different from new york bagels for all you non yankees) and he ran into my friends Ben and Nic and Christy (and Ben's wife Shannon whom I have never met) Ben is moving to Australia to play basketball. But anyway he ran into them and so he called me on my cell phone and they passed the phone around and I got to talk to them all and it was rather refreshing, so that was nice. Of course there is a new phenomenon going on in my life, my uncle is trying to witness to me, he sends me all these invitations to talks on various topics in the Dallas/Fort Worth area, um I live in Kentucky first of all. And second of all I believe that I am a Christian because I have accepted Christ as my Lord and savior. I just am confused because I feel like a project, and that he could be using his resources on people who don't know God. I believe that if I die tomorrow, I will spend eternity in Heaven because of what Christ did on the cross for me. If he would like he is more than happy to come visit me, go to church together, whatever but seriously. I think he should read this book called Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller, I think it would rock his reality. Then maybe he might stop seeing people as projects, and start asking God how He views them, just a thought. ANd then there is the news that my grandfather needed brain surgery, found out right before Christmas, and then he actually had the surgery today, basically in layman's terms he needed a drain installed. Not too invasive but when your grandfather is a somewhat frail 86, anything is invasive if you ask my professional medical opinion. Good news is that the surgery went well, my whole Bible study (including all the prego or soon to be prego women) prayed for him and so did my other friends, not in Kentucky. Surgery went as planned and he is resting comfortably. Makes you think a lot though. Like do I really believe that God is in control of my life? and if I do believe that, well then why am I so incapable with trusting Him with my grandfather's surgery? And is it okay for me to be this honest, or should I put on a strong face and not let anyone know that I was scared? I have a hard time putting up a front, so at Bible study after I first found out about the whole diagnosis and surgery and everything I was reduced to tears. I am glad that I was able to be honest. I'm glad that I go to a Bible study where they let me cry, and prayed for me and my grandfather (even a few days later all the way up until the surgery today) and I am glad that I don't have to put up a front, GOd is real and personal and He knows how I feel inside and He is asking me to surrender to Him, and if that means crying infront of my whole Bible study (which I used to find rather embarrassing) well then that is what I will do.

New YEAR, New POSSIBILITIES

Christmas is over, and New Years is over. Both were awesome. Christmas was so quiet and peaceful out at the lake. New Years was a ton of fun, even though I had to leave in the morning for Eastern Illinois, it was a joy to spend time with friends here in Kentucky. It's been a while since I really got to spend some quality time with my new friends here in Kentucky, and they are wonderful. They are fun and funny and most of all, is that they know who they are in Christ, and they are okay with who they are. There is no performance, there is no competition. It's just fun to be able to hang out with people who just delight in each other. One thing that was rather strange was watching the New Year on TV in the central time zone. I am so used to watching it in the Eastern time zone so it was rather anticlimactic to watch the ball drop in times square at 11 pm. We are home from Illinois and it is great to be on a 4 home game stand. Then after that we have some away games that are day trips. Tonight will be the 3rd night in a row that I get to sleep in my own bed! And I think the most exciting thing!!! is that a couple of the athletes I work with have asked to go to church with me!! How exciting as it says in 1 Timothy that God has appointed me to this ministry. So pray for them and for me, pray that they would not just come to church, but that they would be able to see that it's about a relationship. That going to church is something we do in order to worship the Lord not because it's "what we're suppose to do" but rather that we choose to do it because of our relationship with the LORD.